For the last several years, I have wanted to learn how to meditate. No matter what I try, where I sit, the time of day, I just never seem to have the ability to quiet my mind, remain open, and just be. It is so hard to be present with … the silence. Nothingness. Patiently waiting for … for whatever is supposed to actually happen when you are meditating.
Over the last year, I have come to realize, for me, running is my meditation. It is a time in my day when I am usually on my own, the rhythmic pounding of left, right, left… looking for traffic, simply observing the world and being present. I can run for hours and simply enjoy BE-ing in the world, moving on my feet, smiling for no reason other than … I am.
I have not run since Saturday, and I am feeling that … yearning of wanting to get out and move my body. I miss the quiet spaces I find while putting in my paces around the waterfront. I am so grateful tomorrow is a run day! Being on the taper, I think I will feel the difference – lacking the extra mileage, and for the first time, I feel like NOT running will be harder than running every day. It’s funny how things change. 🙂