Many of my years as a child, growing into adulthood in my teens, and pressing further into my life as a career-person, aware and contributing to society, have been spent in a constant commentary with Ego. It has taken a lot of reading (my large collection of self-help novels is yet to be unpacked in my new apartment), listening to motivational speakers, and connecting with others to finally recognize this aspect of myself. I used to identify my “logical, critical thinking” with reasoning, and I am beginning to see this as the opposite. This past year, I have been un-training myself to trust “reason” and let go, attempting to learn to listen to my subconscious and intuitive thinking.
Man, is it hard!
For someone who has always analyzed every situation, weighed the pros and cons, and rationally chosen the direction to walk down a path, choosing to feel my reaction and to literally go with my gut has been a challenge.
On the other hand, freeing my mind and following my body’s response has been extremely liberating. I can still see my mind go into analytical mode, and I am nowhere near as good at this as I would like to be, yet, I am getting better at acknowledging the thoughts, and letting them go. The physical response to words, actions, ideas, thoughts, anything introduced to your surrounding is always present.
Since making the choice to live this way, I surprisingly have more time in each day. Being less in my head has freed my hands to do other things, and my mind can better occupy time with thoughts of the here-and-now, rather than floating off into the oblivion of the unknown future questions and hypotheses. I feel relieved and happy to have time to write more often!
Have you felt yourself shift? Do you notice a difference in space and time when you stay present?
One of the side-effects of staying present is not having the time to prepare and protect. One is forced by nature to remain vulnerable in each setting because nothing else is important. We are able to truly experience our feelings (feel the gut reactions!) and process them in real-time, not wondering what may come next or how that will affect us. We are free to Be. What a wonderful way to live!
Now, I’m no Guru, but I have listened to the advise of a few of these knowledgable people, and hope I have gleaned enough to start making a difference in my life. When I want to talk with someone, I will call them. If I am pulled to respond to a text in a longer format to convey that I care, I will.
Most importantly, I have learned, when someone has significance in your life, to let them know.
This holiday season, I am going to take a cue from a good man, Evan Sanders at The Better Man Project, and write to my loved ones. Writing is a much more expressive, and eloquent, method for communication for me, and I want to let each and every special person in my life know that I appreciate them. Because you really never know when your next opportunity will come. (Thanks, Evan, for the brilliant idea, and reminder).
Today’s top three: Be present with those you love, wear your heart on your sleeve, and follow your intuition.
with love, light, and delight,